The more visit to the vet, the more dejected, distress and negative both bb and me gets. We didnt managed to speak to a surgeon. Thats a missed. But we got the cost of surgery. Estimated of 7k. 80% to pay upfront. Recovery stated low. Unknown. Three vet we ran together more and more money throw in, nothing new alternatives was given. Everything unsure. Fml.
Dont wanna put bb through the process of surgery. Til the best i can provide for his standard of living and quality of care, last resort is euthanasia. Am i selfish?, bro friends debated with me. Of course hell yea i know bb is only 2 years old. Apart from finanacial issues, and no comfirmation of the success to bb conditions, im putting him at more risks and agony. Its not easy for me to say put him to sleep. I know my responsible of him as im the owner... but im trying my very best to accept the ugly truth of him permanently paralyze. For the best of him still able to have reflexes im having my hopes up for a miracle. But im commited in school/work. The time where bb will be left alone helplessly, prone to sores and etc. Its painful even more for me.
I dont want him to feel pain.
Bb already so attached with me due to the countless visit to the vet that he have separation anxiety. And tomorrow i have to report for my attachment. WHO CAN I TURN HELP TOO!!. Im fretting over by myself.
Im not ok everytime i tell bb its ok. And i know bb is not ok without me around. i cant trust bb in any other strangers hand, not even vet. I NEED A 100% COMFIRMATION.
Surgery or not.
Money where to get?
Lifestyles and living compromise.
Lkl
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